Hopeless Musing #10

 

 

Source: https://weheartit.com/entry/326694282?context_page=6&context_query=yellow+bouquet&context_type=search

SAFETY.

I asked the psychologist once, why I couldn’t feel anything.

She said to me that it wasn’t that I couldn’t feel anything, it was that I had to feel like I was in a safe enough environment to let my walls down before I could allow myself to feel something. Because I had spent so much time not feeling to survive.

I thought about what she said and I still think about it now. Sometimes I can feel my walls slowly crumbling when I’m around certain people, and it makes me nervous.

Surely, any day now, safety will come and I will feel something again.

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